Before I proceed on pouring my heart out, I just want to tell what really happened before I started my internship.
I submitted my applications to various hotels, both in Alabang and Makati on the month of April. I was really eager to hear responses from them, confident that I’ll get called up immediately because of my academic records.
But boy (or girl. HAHA) was I wrong.
Then came the month of May, I was starting to get anxious. Thinking of every possibility why I wasn’t receiving ANY (yes, not even one) response. I was getting updates from my classmates seeing their posts such as “I got accepted in _____” “Looking forward to have my internship in…” etc. I was starting to think, maybe they think that my 2x2 photo wasn’t pretty enough, maybe my academic records weren’t high enough, maybe, maybe, and a lot more maybe’s.
I made a rant to my dad about it, he was the one who told me. “Wala ka bang tiwala kay God, anak?” Whoa, that woke me up to my senses. (Even though that statement hurts, thank you Lord for my dad still. Hihi)
As I browsed back, I found in my journal way back I wrote “I am still waiting… but I await with hope and faith in You.” I realized that through the waiting process, he was:
humbling me, do you remember when I said that I was “confident that I’ll get called up immediately because of my academic records”? That was one of it. I wasn’t called up immediately because I was too confident in myself, that I left God out of the picture. To be honest during the month of April, I barely prayed about my OJT (that’s how confident I was).
teaching me to wait, by making me wait. I was very impatient, I wasn’t fond of the idea of having to wait for months and having to stay home - all the time. It was a learning experience indeed na hindi lang sa lovelife involved ang waiting, sa maraming aspeto pa ng buhay mo and the best (not just good) things comes to those who wait.
Biblically, waiting is not just something we have to do until we get what we want. Waiting is part of the process of becoming what God wants us to be. – John Ortberg
Basically, I’ve learned that my entire life involves waiting, is waiting (on the Lord) and waiting is definitely worth it.
teaching me to stop worrying and trustin Him. I obviously trusted in my academic records. Silly me. What could numbers do? In the end, si God makakapagpapasok sa akin sa Hotel.
stop focusing on myself but instead to focus on Him. I was actually focusing on myself, 2x2 picture pa lang, classmates posting updates, etc. That was what I was doing, I was comparing myself to my other classmates, when in fact I shouldn’t have done so. It was basically selfish because I was focusing on myself. I should’ve never lost focus on Him.
I learned a lot from waiting.
What happened after that?
I got a call from Raffles Makati (they were the first ones to contact me, and Raffles is on top of my list) and I got accepted (T_T). Even when I was having my internship, I got a message from my second choice in my list inviting me for an interview. :)
He never does anything without a purpose. He really is so, so good.
Again. When He makes you wait, it’s definitely worth it.
I woke up finding myself in a state of panic and distress. I was extremely late for school and missing a quiz could leave a huge impact on my final grades.
My grandma repeatedly asked me to eat something before I leave but I found it as something really annoying for her to do. My mind said, “Can’t you see that I’m already late for school? Would you just please stop?” and I held myself back from saying it to her but I answered her back “No.” with an obvious hint of frustration in my voice.
I left the house with uncombed and tangled hair, brushed my teeth for 30 seconds and left my phone at the house. What you would typically call a state of disaster. I resisted from blaming anyone for not waking me up on time. To add up to my frustrations the tricycle driver didn’t have change for my 20 peso bill, so I didn’t bother getting the full change and the bus I rode on was full and I didn’t get a seat. What’s worse was that my heart was in a very bad condition. It was full of anxiety, frustrations, and worry.
Someone offered me a seat and I took it. After contemplating on my actions I realized I was really trying to do things by myself without thinking about the welfare of others and God. I was convicted to restart my day and pray.
I let it all out to God, asking for His forgiveness and His help. I felt peace, I was back to my senses and was assured that with God everything would turn out okay.
What happened was, I made it on time for the quiz and I was able to review for it! As soon as I arrived home, I felt the joy of being reconciled with my Lola (that’s grandma in Filipino).
We should really start our day by spending it with God. Even the smallest things could ruin our day if we won’t stop and take time to read His Word and pray. Trust in Him, for His promises are true. :)
Do not worry about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, beloved, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is pleasing, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence and if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. (Philippians 4:6-8)
Have a blessed day!
Worth a million reblogs
Reblogging again and again. Jesus, we love you. *This is really worth a million reblogs. To show how much pain Jesus have gone through just for US* Jesus sacraficed HIS life, went through all that pain and suffering FOR YOU, yet you can’t even reblog this post? Reblog, it’s something you can do to give back to God, what he gave for you.
"Before sharing the Good News, be the Good News first."
Before sharing about the love of Christ, let Christ be evident in your lives first. Imitate Him, know more about Him by reading about His Word. Live a life not contradicting to what you share, so you won’t cause anyone to stumble.
Yaaaay! Praise God dear. <3
Awesooome! Praise God dear. =)
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